Today (wrote most of this yesterday but didn't post till today) my family and I took the two boys (my son and lil nephew) out to ride their "trucks" at a park. They both had got them this Christmas from my parents and let me just say they were soo cute riding around. My nephew James (just turned 1 in November) understood pushing the red button when he first got on it Christmas morning, because the boy was driving into every wall he could find! For some reason he forgot this new skill of his??? So I had to give up my ponytail so we could use the rubber band to hold the little button down. Jayden was just too thrilled to be plowing up and down hills that he was not able to in his Red Convertable Mustang Power Wheels... He totally outgrew that thing, but he crammed himself in anyway LOL. I remember being a kid wanting one of those, instead of living it for myself I now am able to live it through my child which is definatly MORE satisfying :)! Here are some pics of our day's adventure.... Read below I have more moving onto a somewhat related topic LOL







And YES my nephew has chocolate on his face :) hehe


...Ok now onto the new semi-related topic. Last night while going to sleep I turned on TV and lately I've always watched the news while going to sleep (my God have I gotten old!!). I've been keeping myself kinda up to date on the Caylee Anthony case. The Grandparents are seeking immunity for their testimony. Apparently a good lawyer would insist on that for their clients in a situation like this... it actually works hand in hand for the Grandparents and the Prosecutors. The Grandfather an ex-cop smells "death" in his daughters car/truck during the same time frame his Granddaughter is missing... hmmm??? I'm sure he was trying to believe the best in his daughter... BUT HE SHOULD KNOW BETTER and STOP DEFENDING THEIR DAUGHTER!!! All the facts that have come out on the news you know the woman had everything to do with her daughter's death. Do I believe she premeditated her daughter's murder? I have no clue. But seeing some of the clips of her in jail talking to her parents, she certainly is NOT destroyed about the loss of her daughter. IF something EVER happened to my child (God please forbid) I would be COMPLETELY destroyed!!! I wouldn't be able to take a nap or go to sleep because one of my fondest memories of him is when he cuddles with me he throws his little arm over my neck while I tickle his arm. I wouldn't be able to drink, because the drink would never disappear out of the glass within moments of him seeing it. Every step of EVER day would be a CONSTANT reminder of him not here with me! How can a mother pick up her head long enough to even breathe between her cries??? But to top it off, IF it was an accident, YOU are the reason you are without your child... How could you even breathe without being overwhelmed with guilt?? I can't even imagine the pain I would feel... and she CERTAINLY isn't expressing pain a mother should feel!! I mean going clubbing and playing house at my boyfriend's house certainly isn't the any lifestyle I could have within weeks of losing my child. And further more, how can the grandparents continue to defend their daughter? I asked my father what he would do in that situation, before he had a chance to respond my mother came running from the back and said she'd pin me up against a wall demanding to know where her grandchild was all while beating the crap out of me... I knew that would be her response I didn't have to ask her LOL... and THAT'S the responce I would want out of my family! When it comes to MY child I WANT my family to put HIM and HIS needs/safety BEFORE ME!! Because that's EXACTLY the way I see it too!


One of my Aunts in Florida for years has taken care of children placed into the state's custody because of abuse, right now she has an infant either 2 weeks old or 2 months old can't remember... A week ago while the baby was in the watch of the father the baby ended up with a bad cut on her gums, mother took the baby to the hospital and they felt something wasn't adding up so they called the state in to investigate. The state didn't want the baby to be alone with the father again... well a week later baby is back in the ER because now she has a BROKEN ARM... Mom left the baby with Dad again... FIRST OF ALL WHAT THE HELL WAS SHE STILL WITH THE MAN FOR????? I don't give two flyin flips who you are... you start hurting my child, you better be lucky if you'll be able to walk again... just because you're Dad that'll only make it worse because I'll make SURE you'll never be able to Father another child again! You mess with my kid and Mama Bear comes out in me!!! As a parent you are suppose to make a safe haven for your child, keep them safe from harms way... home is their refuge... You destroy that and you have violated them in one of the worst ways. My child would never have the opportunity to be in that man's care EVER again! Just sickening!

My son looks at me like I'm the MOST important person in the whole wide world, and he needs me more then anyone else... how a parent can destroy such an honor of love and respect at it's absolute purest I will never be able to comprehend. That love is as pure as it can get, their hearts haven't had the opportunity to be hardened or tainted with selfishness... you will NEVER find that kind of love from any other person, a child's love is the most special gift a person can ever have... I surely wish people weren't able to reproduce until they can prove to be good parents and then given reproductive organs AFTER that fact! Just the way I feel.